Life has never felt quite right to me,
Alone at recess
Nervous at lunch,
I remember crying for my mother on the first day of kindergarten,
I thought she had left me for good.
Every first day of school
I had a belly full of butterflies,
Too shy to make friends,
I never felt adjusted,
I remember the melancholy
When no one talked to me
Forever alone in this chamber of fear,
Every little smirk
All of you are jerks
Laughing at my expense
Swelling anxiety,
Mother wasn't there to protect me.
Written August 9, 2019
